White People: Here’s what you need to know about Black Lives Matter

White People: Here’s what you need to know about Black Lives Matter

I want to preface this by saying my intention in putting together this post is to be a resource for white people who want to learn, help, and educate themselves on how to be a better ally to the black community but do not have any idea where to start. It is not my intention to take away any platform from people of color about this movement. My goal with this post is to be a launchpad for new allies. I want to redirect people who want to get involved and be allies to the black creators, writers, influencers, and leaders of this movement. This is not my story to tell. I will never know their pain, but I want to do what I can to encourage people to get involved and start listening. There is a lot to read here and a lot to unpack, but I promise you, it is all incredibly important so buckle up and take a seat. Let’s talk about racism in America.

What is happening?

The Black Lives Matter (BLM) movement has had a resurgence due to the recent killings of young, unarmed, black civilians including: Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, and the most recent, George Floyd. Please read up on Ahmaud and Breonna’s murders. I linked articles about their murders because you need to know their stories to fully understand and sympathize with the grief felt by the black community. In this post, I am specifically talking about the murder of George Floyd and how his death sparked protests around the country that are still happening over a week later, and why you should get involved in the BLM movement.

The growing agony and disbelief felt by the black community and their allies rose to a boiling point after the video surfaced of George Floyd being detained by a police officer after being accused of paying with a counterfeit bill on May 25, 2020. George Floyd was unarmed. George Floyd did not resist arrest. George Floyd did not pay with a counterfeit bill. None of those things mattered. Officer Derek Chauvin pinned him to the ground regardless with his knee on George Floyd’s neck. This tactic was not ethical and not part of the Minneapolis police department’s official training. Derek Chauvin kept his knee on George Floyd’s neck for nearly 9 minutes. Even as Floyd begged him to lay up, even as he told Chauvin he was unable to breathe, and even after he became unconscious. Derek Chauvin’s knee remained on George Floyd’s neck for almost 3 minutes after he was believed to be dead while 3 other officers stood by and watched. George Floyd’s limp body was then haphazardly placed onto a stretcher and whisked away from the scene.

George Floyd died at the hands of a police officer who used an inhumane and uncertified method to restrain him, after arresting him for a crime he had not been proven guilty of. In fact, he was innocent, however it would seem “innocent until proven guilty” is only applicable when the one being accused is not a person of color.

Three videos piece together the final moments of George Floyd’s life

Almost the entirety of the situation was caught on camera. Floyd’s arrest, the almost 7 minutes of Floyd begging for his life, Floyd’s body going limp, bystanders asking if Floyd is dead, and when Floyd’s body was carelessly moved to a stretcher. All of that recorded on film. All the evidence in the world to convict Derek Chauvin of first degree murder and the other 3 officers as accomplices to murder, but justice was never served.

Chauvin and the other three officers were fired by the Minneapolis police department, but none of them were charged with anything. They were unemployed, but they were still walking as free men after murdering an innocent man and the whole world knew it.

This is when the protests began.

They were planned to be peaceful. Those who were there in support and solidarity were peaceful. However, there were people who were angry. You must consider how a peaceful protest can turn violent. There is a long history of instigators showing up to events like this to turn them violent in order to get away with illegal activities. Another thing to consider is the Theory of Broken Windows. The idea is that if there are clear signs of disorder, more disorder will occur. NPR has an excellent article about the history of this theory in regard to policing, I have linked it below.

How A Theory Of Crime And Policing Was Born, And Went Terribly Wrong

Throughout history, especially in regard to protests regarding equality of any variety, the police have used this theory to their advantage by breaking windows in order to create large massive riots that make the protestors look horrific and monstrous in order to discredit their cause. This is what was believed to have happened in Minneapolis, but it was also caught on film. This only fueled the fires of a war beginning between Minneapolis and their police, and ultimately the United States and their police.

Why are people protesting?

Although Derek Chauvin was finally arrested on May 29, 2020, four days after Floyd’s murder, he was only charged with third degree murder and second degree manslaughter. They want Chauvin to be charged with first degree murder and for the other three officers present to be charged as accomplices to murder. Chauvin’s third degree murder charge allows him to be freed on bail. This is not justice.

No justice, no peace.

This case is eerily similar to Ahmaud Arbery’s murder. His murderers were not charged until 2 months after the murder took place. It was not until protests, petitions, and social media campaigns began and local police and government’s inaction had been revealed that they were finally charged with murder. Ahmaud’s family did not get to celebrate his 25th birthday with him alive, but they did get to celebrate justice for his murder, even though it was long overdue. The protests happening nationwide after George Floyd’s murder will not stop until all the officers involved are given proper sentences and the Minneapolis police department is investigated.

Video by @kareemrahma on Tik Tok.

Why does is matter what degree of murder?

As I previously stated, Chauvin is able to get out on bail with his current sentencing. Murder is too serious of a crime to pay your way out of.

Third Degree Murder according to Minnesota state law (Statute 609.195) “Whoever, without intent to effect the death of any person, causes the death of another by perpetrating an act eminently dangerous to others and evincing a depraved mind, without regard for human life, is guilty of murder in the third degree and may be sentenced to imprisonment for not more than 25 years.” The funny thing about third degree murder is only three states in the U.S. have this degree of murder. It is considered to be a lesser degree of murder.

Second Degree Murder includes both intentional and unintentional murder. According to Minnesota state law (Statute 609.19) “causes the death of a human being with intent to effect the death of that person or another, but without premeditation” and “causes the death of a human being, without intent to effect the death of any person, while committing or attempting to commit a felony offense other than criminal sexual conduct in the first or second degree with force or violence or a drive-by shooting.” Second degree murder has a lot of different clauses and I recommend you look at the statute for yourself.

First Degree Murder is defined by Minnesota state law (Statute 609.185) it “causes the death of a human being with premeditation and with intent to effect the death of the person or of another.” They actually have a list of seven different things that could make someone applicable for a first degree murder charge and that was only the first one. It might be worth your time to take a look at the list.

It has been revealed that Chauvin has been written up 18 times for his discriminatory behavior as a police officer, however all the reports have been closed and dismissed. We do not want the murder of George Floyd to be dismissed. Chauvin held his knee on George Floyd’s neck for almost 9 minutes and ignored his pleas for help. It seems that Chauvin was pretty intent on making sure Floyd was no longer able to breathe and the other officers on the scene let it happen. This is why the charge must change and why the other officers must be charged as accomplices. Here is an article by CNN rounding up everything you need to know about Derek Chauvin.

Derek Chauvin: What we know about the former officer charged in George Floyd’s death


As of June 3, Derek Chauvin has been charged with second degree murder and the other 3 officers involved have been charged with aiding and abetting murder. Originally protestors were demanding he be charged with first degree murder, but here is why second degree murder is a good charge and one that needs stay.

When this case goes to trial, prosecutors need to give sufficient evidence that he committed the crimes he has been charged for. While the video alone is enough evidence for most people, that does not mean it is enough evidence in a court of law. While Chauvin could potentially be charged with first degree murder if there was indeed evidence that he knew Floyd prior to his arrest (which there has been speculation that he and Floyd were coworkers for a year as they both worked as security for a local bar), there is not enough evidence to prove that this is true and that this murder was pre-meditated, even though it was clearly intentional. If the prosecution does not have enough evidence for the first degree charges, then we could lose the trial and Chauvin could face an even shorter sentence. Simply being charged for these crimes is not enough, he has the right to a trial and his attorney will be fighting hard. Although the evidence seems condemning, please do not forget who this system was built to protect and who it was not designed to protect. We do not want Chauvin to get off on only a manslaughter charge.

Video by @fairynadia on Tik Tok

How can I help?

Story chains, quoting MLK, and posting black squares on Instagram don’t help. You need to listen to what the black community actually needs from you. They appreciate the support, but they need you to do more than just post about it on social media. These are a few ways to be an ally to the black community. Sign petitions and then share them on social media to encourage others to sign them. Make donations and then share the links to encourage others to make donations. Support black-owned businesses. Follow black creators. Stop posting your regular content in solidarity and give black creators the platform they should’ve had all along. Join the #AmplifyMelanatedVoices challenge. Start having conversations about it with people who think BLM is a political issue. Educate yourself and educate others. Learn about other police brutality cases and help them get justice too. Advocacy never disrupts the feed.

Petitions to Sign

#JusticeforFloyd Demand the officers who killed George Floyd are charged with murder.

Justice for Big Floyd

Demand Justice for George Floyd

Raise the Degree

Here is a list of other petitions.

Places to Donate

George Floyd Memorial Fund

Black Lives Matter

The Bail Project

NAACP Legal Defense and Educational Fund

Minnesota Freedom Fund *They have received massive amounts of donations lately and they are grateful for the support, but they will redirect you to other sites that need your donations as well.

People to Contact

Articles to read for further understanding

Why You Need to Stop Saying “All Lives Matter” by Rachel Elizabeth Cargle

Black Bodies and White Souls by Matt Bockenfeld

Campaign Zero

Explained: Why George Floyd’s death has sparked violent protests in the US

How to Make this Moment the Turning Point for Real Change by Barack Obama

75 Things White People Can Do for Racial Justice by Corinne Shutack

Video by @mistercapeheart on Tik Tok.

Books to read

When They Call You a Terrorist by Patrisse Khan-Cullors & Asha Bandele

Black Feminist Thought by Patricia Hill Collins

Heavy: An American Memoir by Kiese Laymon

How to Be An Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi

I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou

So You Want to Talk About Race by Ijeoma Oluo

The Help by Kathryn Stockett

To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee

The Blood of Emmett Till by Timothy B. Tyson

Hashtags to follow


Accounts to follow

These accounts may be black creators, white allies, and BLM organizers who have information about the movement, new petitions, places to donate, videos from protests, updates about charges, politics, news, or have insight you should see as to what it is like to be a member of the black community. Please please PLEASE follow black creators. They don’t have to be talking about activism. I promise you there are hundreds of creators out there who make content about the same things you are passionate about and you may not even know they exist because the algorithm and your discover page or your “For You” page are often more likely to show you white creators. You will never truly understand how we are similar and how we are different until you diversify the content you see on social media.


  • @blklivesmatter
  • @ckyourprivilege
  • @rachelcargle
  • @NAACP
  • @osopepapatrisse
  • @laylafsaad
  • @scottwoodsrules
  • @shityoushouldcareabout

Tik Tok

  • @fairynadia
  • @gigiray_
  • @mistercapeheart
  • @ashleighhvideos
  • @yeahitstyg
  • @lizzo
  • @taylorcassidyj


  • @blklivesmatter
  • @AOC
  • @halsey
  • @johnlegend
  • @janellemonae
  • @tessathompson_x
  • @missyelliot
  • @kekepalmer


Although these protests are intended to be peaceful, once the police show up, they have a way of quickly turning violent. Be careful, be cautious, and do not lose sight of why you are there in attendance in the first place. You are allowed to be angry, a whole community is hurting. Use your anger to raise your voice. Please do not turn to violence. Please do not take your anger out on local businesses within your community. Agitators may show up to these protests who do not care about your mission, but do what you can to let it be known that they are not with you and that it is not the protestors contributing to the violence. Many people like to use the excuse that violence undermines the message. I beg you, PLEASE pay attention to who is being violent. Peaceful protestors do not show up with the intention of violence. Please seek the truth. Also please pay attention to the behaviors of police officers at the protests. It is critical you watch the videos of them interacting with protestors in order to understand police brutality. Last, but certainly not least, please be careful out there. We want you to continue to use your voice to stand with us and to do so we need you here. Be safe.

Resources for Protestors

For Protestors – By BLM

Safety During Protest – Amnesty International

How to Protect Protestors in Your Photos and Videos by Lewis Gordon

Video by @skincarebyhyram on Tik Tok.


Talk to your parents, your grandparents, your friends, and anyone who says “All lives matter.” There is no debate that all lives matter. All lives do matter. However, throughout our history many lives have been questioned as to whether or not they matter as much. Have you ever heard someone call into question whether or not white people matter? Do you remember those photos in your history textbook, the ones about the civil rights movement, and segregation? Do you remember the one that shows two water fountains, one clearly labeled as “White Only” and the other one as “Colored,” does that ring a bell? After hundreds of years of black people fighting to be recognized as more than just property, they were then told they couldn’t drink from the same water fountains or sit at the same lunch counters as white people. Do you remember that picture of America?

People of color have been oppressed since the beginning of this country. That is a truth you can’t deny. History books alone are sufficient evidence of our faults and I can almost guarantee they do not hold even half of the story of all the ways we have wronged and continue to wrong people of color in our country. All lives matter, but no one has ever questioned whether or not white lives matter. There is no doubt that white lives matter. Our society was built for white people. There was a time in our country’s history where many white people owned black people because they believed they were the equivalent of property. When white people were not allowed to own them anymore, they made it impossible for them to live as normal people. They were worked ungodly hours, were paid lower than minimum wage, were not allowed to own their own properties, were not allowed to vote, were not allowed to drink from the same water fountains as white people, use the same restrooms as white people, or even sit in the same seats on the bus as white people, and for a long time they were not even considered citizens. When segregation became illegal and people of color were finally granted more rights by our constitution, white people had to be smarter about how they could hold people of color back, how they could ensure an imbalance of power. Welcome to stereotyping, workplace discrimination, voter discrimination, racial profiling, redlining, gentrification, the criminalization of blackness, police brutality, and censorship of black influencers.

White people have struggles. We’re human beings, we all have issues and that is completely valid. The thing you need to remember here is that there has never been a shadow of a doubt that white people matter. White people make the rules. White people have never been told they don’t matter. White people have never been told that they are less than a human. They were never counted as 3/5 of a person for their state’s population. They have never been told that they “looked shady” simply for jogging in their neighborhood. They have never been labeled as problems before they turn 13. They have always, and always will be, counted as human beings and they will never have to fight, protest, riot, call senators, sign petitions, and/or raise funds to prove to the rest of the world that they matter. This is why we say “Black Lives Matter.” We will continue to say it, until everyone believes it. Until no one sees the need to say “All lives matter,” because it will actually be true. If all lives mattered George Floyd’s murderers would currently be serving their sentences.

If someone says to you, “All lives matter,” ask them, “Well then what about George Floyd’s?”

Say. Their. Names.

*I will continue to update this article with more resources and links as the fight continues. Feel free to comment other important resources down below.

Video by @jeremycohen on Tik Tok

Heartbreak Thoughts

Heartbreak Thoughts

I got my heart broke kind of. We were never technically in a relationship so many would argue this probably doesn’t even count, but I still consider this to be my first heartbreak because of how it hurt. I can’t say I was in love, but I know I was falling.

He was an amazing guy and I ended it. Secretly I had been waiting on it to fall apart from day one. I’m kind of cynical when it comes to these things, you know, relationships. I will always hope for the best but deep down I try not to get my hopes too high, but sometimes I can’t help it.

We saw each other consistently for 4 months but never got to a place in time where we put a label on it. In my mind, we were essentially treating it as a relationship but he kept holding back from calling it that. I think I always knew that translated to him having doubts about me, but in the moment I really wanted to hope for the best and told myself he just wanted to take it slow.

The more I thought about it, the more I psyched myself out about it. People in my life, people I love, people I trust told me it looked like I was going to get hurt and I knew they were right. I had already been hurt. I wanted so badly to know what it was like to be in love I didn’t notice how hesitant he was to make the jump.

I’m a talker. I want to talk things out with you, and when you want to talk, I’m a drop everything kind of person. I’ll be there in an instant. If you need me, if you want to try to make this work, I am so there. I forget so easily that not everyone is a drop everything person like me and I set myself up to get hurt a lot by hoping everyone is the same way. I prioritize people I care about more than most people probably do, but I really can’t help it. I want to be there for you no matter what and in my heart I’m hoping you want to be there for me just as much. That’s an excellent way to get your heart broken without ever being in love.

The trouble with leading someone on is that the longer you wait to tell them you know you’ll never love them, the more time they have for their feelings for you to grow. They haven’t walked away because they could see themselves loving you and they already know they’re starting to fall for you, and they assume you haven’t walked away because you’re feeling the same. Sometimes falling in love takes time and this is normal.

But if you don’t feel the same, you have to stop holding onto something you know isn’t right. Yes, you may care about them, but if you’re only interested in the idea of being with them, you’re going to hurt them even more because they’re interested in actually being with you. It doesn’t matter if you think you could love them, they know they could love you.

Don’t get their hopes up if you’re just going to let them down. Rip the bandaid off and allow them to heal before the wound gets any deeper. They trusted you with their heart don’t make them regret it.

If I give you a little piece of my heart you can’t underestimate its value. While I know he didn’t mean to lead me on, it still hurt like hell. I know he cared about me and he’d never want to hurt me, but he wasn’t sure he could see himself loving me and he didn’t want to admit it. So he didn’t admit it. I figured it out and I decided to walk away.

Relationships require work from both people involved. I wasn’t seeing the same effort I was putting in and he wasn’t able to prove to me he could give me that at the time. He’ll never know how much I wanted him to prove me wrong.

It’s funny how all the stereotypical things about heartbreak are true. That’s how I know I can consider this some variation of a heartbreak. Sometimes it still keeps me up at night. When I drive past his job I have to remind myself not to look for his car. I have to remind myself not to check his Instagram. I don’t want to know if he’s met someone else. I still want to know what songs he’s listening to, if he’s taking care of himself, and even how his mom is doing, but I’ll never know because I know I can’t ask.

I gave up when he didn’t want to because I was hurt. I felt used even though that was never his intention. I ended it before he wanted to and while I know it was the right thing to do in the moment, I’ll have to live with knowing someone didn’t want to give up on me and I walked away. I never even gave him the chance to chase me.

I’ve seen him once since it ended and when I tell you it ripped my heart out, I mean it. It’s crazy how much you can miss someone you were so used to having around. Just one look and all those feelings rush right back. I didn’t even expect him to talk to me because I thought he would hate me. I think it was easier to tell myself he would hate me. He told me he’s been doing good and I’m really happy for him, more than I was able to say so to his face. He said that he missed talking to me and I didn’t think he would. He told me he’s been working on himself. I think that’s a very heartbreak thing to say.

He really is a good guy, but we both messed up in more ways than one. It would be so much easier to hate him but I can’t because he doesn’t deserve it. That’s something I don’t think I’ll stop thinking about for a while. I just can’t help but wonder “what if.” I think that’s just another heartbreak thing.

He needed some time to grow on his own and so did I. So while I do miss him, I can’t say I regret it. I know who I am and how I deserve to be treated and I’m happy I didn’t stray from that. I don’t think I appreciated the way I stood up for myself in the moment as much as I should have. I regret how it happened, not that it happened. I honestly never thought it would’ve ended so soon. We both deserve to be happy and I really wanted him to be a part of that for me, but I guess good things really do fall apart.

That’s how I know it was a heartbreak.

Dear 2019

Dear 2019

Dear 2019,

You were simultaneously the worst and best year of my life. I don’t know how you did it.

The highs were high, but the lows were real low.

I started off my year feeling hopeless and alone after my harasser at work crossed a line leaving me violated, scared, and wanting to quit my job that I loved so much.

Most of all I was angry at the realization that this something a lot of men just do and get away with. I somehow found the strength to not let my harasser get away with it for the safety of my younger coworkers, but the experience has haunted me ever since.

Most days the memories just sit there in my brain like background noise, other days it’s like the volume has been cranked up to 10 and I can’t turn it down.

I know I did the right thing, but I think that’s one of the scariest things about being a woman, this can always happen again and more than likely it will. It opened my eyes to all the sexism in our world that needs to be addressed. So thanks for this both enlightening and horrifying experience, 2019. It sucked.

Things started looking up though. Around this time I learned about the opportunity to travel abroad with my school, and much to my surprise, my dad said yes.

And so, I was going on an adventure of a lifetime. My trip to Spain this summer will forever be one of my favorite memories and I am beyond excited to go back, hopefully in the near future.

However, right before this trip during the end of my senior year, 2019, you challenged me more so than anything else ever has in my life. You broke me completely and I really do mean that. The two people I trusted more than anyone else in the world at the time walked out of my life and left me completely alone when I needed them most. Worse yet, they hated me and I will never in my lifetime know why. I try really hard to tell myself that’s okay.

My closest friend at the time walked out of my life when my mental state was falling apart, and I was left to fend for myself in a sea of emotions I didn’t understand. That is something, 2019, I can never forgive you for. I wouldn’t wish that experience on my worst enemies, which believe it or not, I don’t consider these girls to be.

Quite frankly I can’t help but wish them the best. I hope in this next decade they find themselves and that they finally grow up. Tearing others down is a trend that needs to die this decade and I’m serious. Talking shit breaks lives, don’t ever forget it.

My trip to Spain was something that helped me in more ways than I think anyone will ever understand. It allowed me to escape from it all for a little while and it pushed me out of my comfort zone. Exploring the country with my favorite Spanish teachers and new friends was an experience I wouldn’t ever trade for the world.

Even better yet, when I came home, I found the people in my life who actually give a damn about me and have never given up on me. To my amazing parents, my beautiful sister, my incredible best friend, my friends who never left my side, and my fantastic new friends I met at college, thank you all for saving my life.

You reminded me that I am loved when I had never felt more unloved in my entire life. You reminded me that it’s okay to not be okay, but when you’re not okay, you have to lean on the people who care about you most, and you have to do it knowing that you’re not a burden to them because they know you would do the same for them in an instant.

I’m the kind of person who has it in her head that the universe is out to get her, and so she doesn’t deserve any good things that cross her path. That’s a mindset I’m going to try my hardest to leave behind in 2019.

If I’m completely honest, the only things I have left to say to 2019 is: Fuck you and thank you, next.

I’m a stronger person because of all the things you put me through, 2019, but I hope I never have to endure anything like it ever again. There are so many things I want to forget from 2019, but there are also memories I hope to never forget. You were the perfect combination of horrible and amazing, and I just hope I never have another year like, no offense, but seriously. 2019, you were kinda the worst.

So 2019, you broke me then put me all back together again and I truly don’t know how you did it, but thank you for making it happen. You introduced me to some of the most amazing people this year and I can’t wait to see how these relationships grow in the future. These relationships got me through this year, and I will forever be grateful for that, even though you really did screw me over most of the rest of the year, but I promise I’ll try not to hold too much of a grudge.

See ya never, 2019. Let’s get this thing started already, 2020.

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Things are different.

Things are different.

Hi, you may have noticed there’s a lot changing here.

Welcome to what used to be known as “Look She Can Blog.” I will forever stand by my reasoning as to why I made that my brand for almost 3 years, but I’m not the same person I was when I started this blog in 2016. The original mission of the site, positivity and acceptance, is still deeply rooted in who I am, but it just means something a little different to me now at 19 years old than it did at 16.

This site needs to be able to grow with me, and well, nothing sticks with you quite like your name. I wanted to keep it simple because I know my niche will always be evolving. There’s a million things I want to do and write about, and the only thing that seemed fitting was just going with my name because I’m literally just me, and I’m always going to be working on figuring out what that actually means.

What I do know is that I’m a writer, and there are at least a hundred million things I want to write about, and I want the freedom to do so without having to worry about “being on brand.” I know that I am a photographer, and I want to be able to focus on that separate from my writing, but I still want it to be a part of my blog. What I’m not is just another social media influencer who’s trying to get a hundred likes and brand deals. There was a time when I that’s what I thought I wanted, but what I really want is to reach people and make an impact.

I would get so caught up in the visuals of putting out content, since that’s a huge part of the influencer game, that I never felt accomplished enough to publish my words without them and so many posts went unpublished. But I always felt guilty about the content because I still felt my words needed to be said but I couldn’t pull together the visuals so I gave up on them completely, and as an artist that is the most frustrating kind of pressure you can place on yourself: Pushing a vision that you think will sell, get views, and be read opposed to what you really want it to be.

That’s why I’ve honestly been feeling like a creative failure most of this year. I’ve quite frankly been an emotional mess and I haven’t allowed myself to utilize the blog as the creative escape it started out as because I never felt like I could finish projects and put out enough content that I was proud of.

I’m not going to lie, I do have quite the track record of being a quitter, but I told myself a long time ago this wasn’t something I was ever going to give up on and I know I owe it to myself to not go back on that promise. So here I am, revamping and rebranding my site and quite literally, myself.

You’re going to be seeing some new content that I know may not have the same appeal to some of my readers as all of my previous content. I’m studying journalism, and as a writer, I’ve got a lot to say about what’s going on in the world.

I promise you everything I write about will be coming from a positive place. I want to write about tough subjects so people can understand them and learn how to be compassionate. I’m a firm believer perspective is everything. We all have to come from a place of love and respect or coexistence is literally impossible. Let’s just say it’ll be preachy but teachy. I’m pretty excited about it.

You’re still going to see content about music, fashion, and of course, lifestyle, but I’m also hoping to write more about important issues and advocate for things that matter to me, and really should matter to everyone. I also would like to pen more personal essays and photo essays. This blog really is a little piece of my heart and I want it to completely feel like one.

Over the next few weeks while I’m on break from school, I’m going to be reworking this site into what I want it to be. I will be going through and weeding through some of my past posts because well, I was 15 when I started writing here and some of it probably just doesn’t need to be on the internet anymore.

I will also be updating all my current pages to make sure the messaging is right for the next chapter of this site. I decided not to shut down the site completely while I’m working because I have noticed I’ve had some steady page views recently and I didn’t want everything to be unaccessible during this time. The major changes have already been made, the next steps are just tidying it up. Some pages will be locked as I update them, but I promise they’ll be up and running again soon.

As always, thank you for hanging in there with me. This year has been an actual rollercoaster for me, but I swear to you I really am doing my best. I am just quite literally a work in progress and disaster all at once, and I thank you for always bearing with me.

Things are different, but I promise you it’s a good different. I hope you’ll be sticking around because I’m really really really excited about it and I hope you are too.

told myself to look at the camera like I look at pizza in order to get this ~dramatic~ shot

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Songs I Jammed to in November

Songs I Jammed to in November

I present to you: A playlist that’s not Christmas songs.

I know I know, I normally share my playlist for the next month at the beginning of that month (i.e. I share a “November Playlist” at the beginning of November), but I decided to share my playlist at the end of the month (or first of the next month, I’m doing my best) so I could spend the whole month deciding what songs I wanted to share because I literally could not be any more inconsistent.

So here are some of my favorite songs from November in case you need a break from all the holiday carols that are currently flooding airways everywhere. Don’t get me wrong, I love Christmas as much as the next girl, but sometimes I need something to vibe with and Christmas carols just ain’t it, so here are some songs I’ve really been vibing with recently.

Let me preface this playlist by saying there is some gooooood music out right now, folks, and since I decided a few weeks ago to quit letting any negative thoughts or feelings I may have get in the way of what makes me happiest, I’ve been so ready to put together a playlist and it’s finally here!

So without further ado, here are the songs I’ve been loving recently and if you’d like to give it a listen on Spotify you can find it here.


  1. This City // Sam Fisher
  2. Finally Feel Good // James Arthur
  3. Good Thing // Zedd feat. Kehlani
  4. Feelings // Lauv
  5. All You Need to Know // Gryffin, SLANDER, Calle Lehmann
  6. Easy // Camila Cabello
  7. Lover // Taylor Swift
  8. Trigger // Major Lazer, Khalid, Death Stranding: Timefall, Diplo
  9. Wave // Meghan Trainor feat. Mike Sabbath
  10. Say to You // Ali Gatie
  11. Hollywood’s Bleeding // Post Malone
  12. Good Things Fall Apart // ILLENIUM, Jon Bellion
  13. Memories // Maroon 5
  14. Rescue Me // OneRepublic
  15. October // Alessia Cara
  16. If The World Was Ending // JP Saxe feat. Julia Michaels