Hello hello! It has been a good long while since I sat down and just let you know what’s going on in life with me. I have a thousand thoughts whirling through my head so I thought why not share them with you all?
First of all, I’d like to say hopefully when summer rolls around there will be more of a regular posting schedule here, it has just been hard lately. I’ve been busy with school, trying not to fall behind, and I’ve been picking up a lot more hours at work.
Which is fine because then I have the money to do things like buying myself a DSLR camera! Okay well, mom may have actually helped me out with this because college and a car are still the main priorities for my savings account at the moment and the need to pay for those is a lot closer than I’m thinking, but I am still shocked that I could even say “Let’s go 50/50 on a DSLR camera.”
I had a really rough weekend a couple weeks back, and my mom knew I had been wanting to get this camera for such a long time. I was not feeling my best, which is actually a severe understatement, and my mom wanted to do something to try and make me feel better, so she said: “Let’s get your camera.” I was super surprised and I am super grateful that my mom wanted to help me get something to help me improve the content on this blog that I love so much. Thanks, Mama!
I’m hoping that with having a new camera might motivate me to take better photos. I have felt really uninspired lately. I will go days without taking a single photo or writing down a single word for a blog post, then all of a sudden I get hit with a burst of ideas, so many ideas, how to make them happen, and a huge drive to get them done. It’ll last maybe an hour or a little more, then I fall right back into a pit of uninspired despair.
I’m so ready to work myself out of this funk, but right now, I’m not sure how. So until then, hang in there with me people, I’ll get there. Hopefully sooner than later.
I’m still pushing through trying to work on a few more posts. This week I took photos with my mom for my first Instagram collaboration, and a blog post I have hopefully coming out later this week, as long as it doesn’t snow here in Indy… I can’t believe I even have to say that, especially now that it’s April.
I mentioned that Instagram collaboration (Which is super crazy, if you ask me), but speaking of Instagram, I’ve been super happy with the growth I’m seeing. I was stuck at 150-160 followers for several months and then all of a sudden I sped past to get to 200 followers, and it is still growing!
I’m really proud of my content right now, and I’m hoping to start posting more consistently. So if you’d like to check out my Insta and maybe give me a follow, that would be amazing! You can find me @lookshecanblog. Thank you to those of you already following!
Something else I’ve done recently is learn a lot about friendship. I was sidelining some of my friends who really care about me to make time for people I had somehow categorized in my brain as more important, more worth my time. It’s heartbreaking to think that I felt that way, subconsciously or not. The people I was focusing on are great people and we made a lot of great memories together, but sometimes good people have sh*tty tendencies.
Friendships will go up and down, but the ones that recover are the ones that matter. I like to consider myself a forgiving person, but sometimes it’s hard. Sometimes there is something deep inside you that doesn’t want to forgive them.
Someday I hope to move past it, and hopefully maybe they can too, but for now, I’m going to focus on the people in my life who never stopped loving me and never stopped caring. And I’m going to take this time to really appreciate the friendships I have with those people.
On a more lighthearted note, I finally found a prom dress thanks to the lovely Maddy Corbin. She was looking to get rid of her dress from a couple years ago, and so she offered it to me. I’m in love with it, it makes me feel like a princess, and I’m now even more excited to dance the night away with my friends at prom. Thank you, Maddy!
**Also, should I do a post about prom? I have always wanted to do one but I’m not sure what I should do it about. Maybe a diary of my prom night? Please comment your thoughts below!
I had also mentioned in a previous post the possibility of me going to Spain next summer, and I can say now with absolute certainty, ya girl is going to Spain! I can’t even put into words how exciting this is for me. I’ve never been overseas, or on a plane in general, so that should be interesting, but I’m going with my favorite Spanish teachers, so that alone will make it a trip to remember.
There are so many exciting things to come in the future and I am beyond excited for when they do. I can’t wait to share them with you!
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