Things are different.

Things are different.

Hi, you may have noticed there’s a lot changing here.

Welcome to what used to be known as “Look She Can Blog.” I will forever stand by my reasoning as to why I made that my brand for almost 3 years, but I’m not the same person I was when I started this blog in 2016. The original mission of the site, positivity and acceptance, is still deeply rooted in who I am, but it just means something a little different to me now at 19 years old than it did at 16.

This site needs to be able to grow with me, and well, nothing sticks with you quite like your name. I wanted to keep it simple because I know my niche will always be evolving. There’s a million things I want to do and write about, and the only thing that seemed fitting was just going with my name because I’m literally just me, and I’m always going to be working on figuring out what that actually means.

What I do know is that I’m a writer, and there are at least a hundred million things I want to write about, and I want the freedom to do so without having to worry about “being on brand.” I know that I am a photographer, and I want to be able to focus on that separate from my writing, but I still want it to be a part of my blog. What I’m not is just another social media influencer who’s trying to get a hundred likes and brand deals. There was a time when I that’s what I thought I wanted, but what I really want is to reach people and make an impact.

I would get so caught up in the visuals of putting out content, since that’s a huge part of the influencer game, that I never felt accomplished enough to publish my words without them and so many posts went unpublished. But I always felt guilty about the content because I still felt my words needed to be said but I couldn’t pull together the visuals so I gave up on them completely, and as an artist that is the most frustrating kind of pressure you can place on yourself: Pushing a vision that you think will sell, get views, and be read opposed to what you really want it to be.

That’s why I’ve honestly been feeling like a creative failure most of this year. I’ve quite frankly been an emotional mess and I haven’t allowed myself to utilize the blog as the creative escape it started out as because I never felt like I could finish projects and put out enough content that I was proud of.

I’m not going to lie, I do have quite the track record of being a quitter, but I told myself a long time ago this wasn’t something I was ever going to give up on and I know I owe it to myself to not go back on that promise. So here I am, revamping and rebranding my site and quite literally, myself.

You’re going to be seeing some new content that I know may not have the same appeal to some of my readers as all of my previous content. I’m studying journalism, and as a writer, I’ve got a lot to say about what’s going on in the world.

I promise you everything I write about will be coming from a positive place. I want to write about tough subjects so people can understand them and learn how to be compassionate. I’m a firm believer perspective is everything. We all have to come from a place of love and respect or coexistence is literally impossible. Let’s just say it’ll be preachy but teachy. I’m pretty excited about it.

You’re still going to see content about music, fashion, and of course, lifestyle, but I’m also hoping to write more about important issues and advocate for things that matter to me, and really should matter to everyone. I also would like to pen more personal essays and photo essays. This blog really is a little piece of my heart and I want it to completely feel like one.

Over the next few weeks while I’m on break from school, I’m going to be reworking this site into what I want it to be. I will be going through and weeding through some of my past posts because well, I was 15 when I started writing here and some of it probably just doesn’t need to be on the internet anymore.

I will also be updating all my current pages to make sure the messaging is right for the next chapter of this site. I decided not to shut down the site completely while I’m working because I have noticed I’ve had some steady page views recently and I didn’t want everything to be unaccessible during this time. The major changes have already been made, the next steps are just tidying it up. Some pages will be locked as I update them, but I promise they’ll be up and running again soon.

As always, thank you for hanging in there with me. This year has been an actual rollercoaster for me, but I swear to you I really am doing my best. I am just quite literally a work in progress and disaster all at once, and I thank you for always bearing with me.

Things are different, but I promise you it’s a good different. I hope you’ll be sticking around because I’m really really really excited about it and I hope you are too.

told myself to look at the camera like I look at pizza in order to get this ~dramatic~ shot

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What’s Different Going into My Senior Year of High School

What’s Different Going into My Senior Year of High School

I’m baaack!

Summer school is officially over and the next two weeks will be spent cracking out some new content for the blog, so I am super excited to kick it off with this one. Enjoy!

I did a post like this last year called What is Different Going into This School Year for my Junior year, and I really feel like it helped me assess my growth and how far I’ve come. So I decided to do a similar post again this year along the same lines, but not quite as brief and with a little more background.

Man, how far I have come from when I first started writing on this blog. Phew!

Here are the main things that will be different for me going into my senior year of high school.

+ My friends have changed. I have moved on from three friends total this year. Which may not seem like a lot, but two of them at one point or another I considered my best friends. I feel like I’ve lost a big part of who I was when I left them behind. But maybe that’s okay.  Maybe we need time to grow to figure out who we are now. I will forever wish them the best.

+ Ya girl is actually driving. I’m more comfortable driving and closer to getting a license than I ever thought I would be. I am even getting ready to buy my first car. I don’t like driving very much. I don’t know why, but I think maybe something went wrong when they were putting me together and they must’ve forgotten to add the two drops of “Teen in a big hurry to drive” because I don’t enjoy it and have been in no rush to get my license. I can see myself enjoying it eventually but for now, I’m just not there yet, but I’m excited for when I do.

+ For the first time ever I feel old. Like really old. In November I’m going to be eighteen. I still can’t wrap my head around it. Eighteen seems like so much responsibility and I have to admit, I am a little nervous. I’m excited about the future, but it also terrifies me a little bit. In a way, I feel like I’m still the little six-year-old who used to cry into her mom’s shoulder about never wanting to grow up. I’m ready for the next chapter, but I don’t want to let go.

+ I’ve gained a lot of perspective. I see the world differently than I did a year ago. I’ve learned so much in such a small amount of time, maybe that’s why I feel so old. I’m finally starting to understand what’s going on in the world around me.

+ I’ve learned a lot of lessons the hard way. Just to name a few:

  • Some people don’t change and you can’t force them to.
  • You can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped.
  • Time management is everything. I am still working on the whole “Don’t procrastinate” thing.
  • Even though I really despised economics this summer, this is the best way to put it, there will always be opportunity costs, but you have to choose the option that will make you happiest.
  • Keep track of your money because one day you’re going to wonder where the heck it all went and realize you probably shouldn’t go shopping as often anymore (Oops… but at least now I know!).
  • Last but not least, don’t get the double scoop cone. You want it, but you know you can’t eat it all, and leaving ice cream uneaten is just utterly disappointing, so just don’t do it to yourself (Okay, I’m still working on this one, obviously).

I hope you are able to realize the growth you’ve made and how far you’ve come. Things are always changing and evolving, but that’s just how the world works. Some things are changing for the better, others not so much, but I have hope we’ll get there.

Whether you’re back in school, going back soon, or already out there living life, I hope you have a wonderful year! Stay positive and please be good to people.

Thanks for stopping by,