Where Have I Been?

Where Have I Been?

OMG HEY!

It’s been a hot minute since I posted anything on here and I promise you it’s been driving me crazy and I promise you I can’t wait to get back into a creative flow again. Senior year is almost over, but I decided that I wanted to recap what’s been going on for me the last few months just to fill you all in as to why I have been gone.

While I love how my blog is a unique and separate part of me, I’d love to start sharing more personal experiences with you all as well because my life doesn’t stop and so I’ll always have something to write about if I bring it back to my life. So today I’m starting off this new tradition here on the blog by sharing photos and stories with you from my life the last couple of months. Enjoy 🙂

Best Buddies Prom

Best Buddies Prom with my Best Buddy and my beautiful sister, Em, of course! I always love dancing the night away with my favorite people in the world. You can’t forget how important it is to show these kiddos that they’re loved and that you want to spend time with them. Prom night to them meant so much and I am so so so happy I was a part of it.

Activism Through Journalism

I wrote a controversial opinion piece for my school’s news website about a decision made by my school board. Here’s the gist of it: My district’s original non-discrimination policy did not include sexuality or gender identity. Although all students and staff are technically protected by sex, gender, age, or religion, they can still be discriminated against because of their sexuality or how they identify. The board voted against adding these two terms to our policy. Their decision was fueled prejudice and personal opinion, which is why they failed to see that these were students asking for their help and they were turning their backs on them because of their beliefs.

That’s why I wrote the story. Every student and every staff member deserves to feel protected period, regardless of whether or not you agree with their opinion or how they live. I am the least opinionated person I’ve ever met in my life and I have never taken a stand on an issue like this before so it’s a HUUUGE deal for me and I really don’t think I could be more proud of something I’ve written outside my comfort zone.

My “Mid-Life Boy Crisis”

You ever been waiting around on a boy who flirts with you, and you think he’s interested and so you get your hopes up, and then all of a sudden you realize he really isn’t trying and he isn’t going to and there’s just been another guy who’s been hanging around being the best, being helpful when he definitely didn’t need to be, being supportive, offering advice, and being an all around freaking amazing guy and you didn’t pay him any attention because you were so focused on the cutie who isn’t making any moves and just keeps playing with your feelings??? CAUSE SAME. Like he was right there the whole time and I never even realized that this freaking fantastic, amazing, wonderful dude has been here just chilling watching all this go down and now I’m just sitting over here like sh*t. I have to wonder how I could really be this dumb and not see this, but there’s still time to try and fix this and maybe make things happen before the end of the summer, so wish me, luck folks.

College Decision Day

Ya girl is staying local and going to IUPUI in the fall, so get ready Indy! I can’t wait to rediscover my city with my favorite gals by my side. I’m heading there to study Spanish and communications, but I already have a feeling that my major (not my minor in Spanish because I love it too much) is probably going to change pretty quickly once I get there… 😉

A Lil Promposal

I asked my bestie to prom (She said yes)! I was a lil tired of waiting around on boys to make moves (OOF) and besides it’s more fun to go with your friends! And I mean technically you could dance with any single guys at the dance as well because it’s 2019, if you want to go to prom solo, you can go to prom solo and dance with other solos! Have a great time!! So we didn’t go to our senior prom “dateless” and because I feel like every girl deserves a cute promposal, I decided to ask my bestie to the dance. ALSO, boys, are y’all crazy? Have you SEEN this gorgeous gal? What the heck my dudes.

Hope for Happiness

I got to see an amazing event my school’s mental health club has been putting together with the city called Hope for Happiness come to life and it was AMAZING. Silent disco, mental health resources, speakers, community members coming together, and elementary school students showing the power of coping skills. It was astounding and I’m so so so grateful to have been a part of the planning process for this event for the last two years.

Learning About Loss

My whole world was flipped upside down when my great uncle, who has been in and out of the hospital the last few months, suddenly had a heart attack and passed away after what we thought was a life-saving surgery. While we weren’t close, I’ve never dealt with grief or loss before. I’ve never lost a grandparent or anyone else in my life, which I know to make it 18 years without losing someone close to you is no small feat, however I always wonder if I would have rather lost someone sooner just so it doesn’t hurt as much when they’re gone after knowing them for so long. Either way, it’s never easy to see the people you love most suffer through it. He was my grandma’s baby brother, but my grandpa’s best friend. They were devastated, my mom was devastated, and of course, then I had to be too.

Last Newspaper Work Session

I had my last newspaper work session, and let me tell you, I know my publications kids out there will get this, but OH MY GOD I am going to miss everyone I met on staff. The rest of the world may think we’re nerdy and annoying but oh well because I love us and I think we’re great. I’ve literally met some of the best people ever and I will miss them so freaking much.

Last Bring Change to Mind Meeting

I had my final mental health club meeting of the year and it was so freaking fun. I’m going to miss these people and this club so so so much. We made some super cute chalk drawings outside our school and posters to decorate the inside with positive affirmations for World Children’s Mental Health Day. We love to spread the love ♥️

Continued Activism

I had the amazing opportunity to attend the next board meeting regarding the issue of my school district’s non-discrimination policy. I was there as an ally to support one of my best friends as she spoke in front of the board. There were over 20 brave students and community members who addressed the board to their stories and why this addition matters, and there were easily over 300 people in attendance to show their support of the amended policy. Love prevailed and the board was swayed after hearing all the emotional testimonials. The addition of gender identity and sexual orientation were added to our policy in a 5-2 vote. It was an amazing thing to be a part of.


As my senior year comes to a close, I hope to share more of my summer adventures and college adventures with you all in the future, as well as your regularly scheduled creative content 🙂

As always, thank you for your love and support on this wild and creative journey.

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Life Lately #4

Life Lately #4

Hey guys!

It’s been a hot minute since I’ve sat down and had some real talk with you, so today, that’s what’s going to happen.

My life has been crazy recently. I just got hit with a big reality check.

If you’ve been reading my blog for a while now or you know me personally, you know that I’m seventeen years old and I don’t have my driver’s license yet.

Yeah I know, it’s pretty pathetic.

I don’t know why, but I don’t enjoy driving. I’m excited to drive myself around, but I really don’t like to drive. I know, I’m definitely not your average teenager. But I know I need my license so I will get it soon enough.

It’s especially pathetic because I do have a job that I have to get to, but I am very fortunate to have such wonderful parents who have flexible enough schedules that they can help me get where I need to go.

However, the time of them carting my ass all over town is about over.

I have known for several months now that I have to have my license before I go into my senior year because I got an internship, which means I have to get myself from school to my internship every single day next school year.

Which is all fine and dandy, but another part of that equation is that I have to have a car.

I have just recently acknowledged that I have a spending problem. I have a tendency to spend more than I should and I don’t even know what it is that I buy. It could easily be a million times worse, but with all the things I should be saving for, my spending habits are getting me nowhere. Besides, it will only make things worse when I have to start making a car payment.

So I’m working on a list of goals for myself when it comes to managing my money, which I know with my newfound motivation I will be able to succeed, but just to be safe, I applied for a second job.

This may seem excessive for a seventeen-year-old, but it’s what I need to do.

I love my parents so much and they work so very hard, but this is one of those things that they can’t help me with and I understand that.

They wish they could just buy me a new car and hand over the keys no strings attached, but that’s just not possible for us. So I understand and I am willing to work even harder to make this work.

They really have spoiled me all my life so I genuinely appreciate having to do something on my own and work twice as hard because it’s a life lesson. It’s an important thing to experience.

However, me getting a second job, makes me even more of an inconvenience to my parents when it comes to having to get me to two jobs now instead of one, which means getting a car is now more important than ever.

Even though I am going to improve my spending habits and make several lifestyle changes, my bank account needs a lot of improvement. Even if I had been saving every penny I earned, I wouldn’t be where I need to be. So needless to say, money is tight right now.

I am doing a couple of extra things to help save up a little money on the side. I will be cleaning out my closet and posting the items on Poshmark over the next couple weeks to sell and I’d love if you would follow along so you can take a look when they go live. Or if you’re feeling a little generous, you can take a look at my Buy Me a Coffee page. Either way, your support means the world to me.

If my life couldn’t get any crazier, I already had a lot going on this summer before all this set in. I’m currently taking two online courses, which if you were here last summer, you know I swore I would never do this again, but alas here I am knocking out a couple required classes so I can have more time to do what I love senior year.

Anyways, these classes are not nearly as hard as the ones I’ve done in the past and require minimal effort, but quite a bit of time, time that I have been hesitant to give up.

Why? Because I would rather be blogging, writing, and creating content for you. I want to continue to grow this blog and my Instagram, but it has been insanely hard to juggle both.

I wish I didn’t have to, but I need to spend less time on this blog. I didn’t want to do so without telling you. That is the main reason why I’m here writing this post and filling you in on all the things that are happening and changing right now.

I need to put all my time and energy into finishing these classes in the next few weeks, and I haven’t been able to allow myself to do that when I have been worrying about my blog.

I have a couple other posts all ready to go up and a couple all planned out that I am still hoping to upload soon, but I wanted you to know that for right now, this blog is on the back burner until my classes are over. I hope you can understand.

My goal is that if I work really hard, I might be able to finish them early and return to doing solely what I love even sooner, but if I still find a way to procrastinate, then I will be back here on a regular basis for the rest of the summer after the second week of July.

This absolutely isn’t goodbye, it’s just letting you know that posts will continue to go up randomly and not as frequently, as they have so far this summer. I’m hoping to upload content on a more regular basis once my classes are over, so please stick with me.

I appreciate all your support. Every comment, every like, every share, every bit of interaction I receive makes a difference, inspires me to do more, and become a better person. Thank you for always supporting me on this crazy adventure.

As always . . .

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Life Lately #3

Life Lately #3

Hello hello! It has been a good long while since I sat down and just let you know what’s going on in life with me. I have a thousand thoughts whirling through my head so I thought why not share them with you all?

First of all, I’d like to say hopefully when summer rolls around there will be more of a regular posting schedule here, it has just been hard lately. I’ve been busy with school, trying not to fall behind, and I’ve been picking up a lot more hours at work.

Which is fine because then I have the money to do things like buying myself a DSLR camera! Okay well, mom may have actually helped me out with this because college and a car are still the main priorities for my savings account at the moment and the need to pay for those is a lot closer than I’m thinking, but I am still shocked that I could even say “Let’s go 50/50 on a DSLR camera.”

I had a really rough weekend a couple weeks back, and my mom knew I had been wanting to get this camera for such a long time. I was not feeling my best, which is actually a severe understatement, and my mom wanted to do something to try and make me feel better, so she said: “Let’s get your camera.” I was super surprised and I am super grateful that my mom wanted to help me get something to help me improve the content on this blog that I love so much. Thanks, Mama!

I’m hoping that with having a new camera might motivate me to take better photos. I have felt really uninspired lately. I will go days without taking a single photo or writing down a single word for a blog post, then all of a sudden I get hit with a burst of ideas, so many ideas, how to make them happen, and a huge drive to get them done. It’ll last maybe an hour or a little more, then I fall right back into a pit of uninspired despair.

I’m so ready to work myself out of this funk, but right now, I’m not sure how. So until then, hang in there with me people, I’ll get there. Hopefully sooner than later.

I’m still pushing through trying to work on a few more posts. This week I took photos with my mom for my first Instagram collaboration, and a blog post I have hopefully coming out later this week, as long as it doesn’t snow here in Indy… I can’t believe I even have to say that, especially now that it’s April.

I mentioned that Instagram collaboration (Which is super crazy, if you ask me), but speaking of Instagram, I’ve been super happy with the growth I’m seeing. I was stuck at 150-160 followers for several months and then all of a sudden I sped past to get to 200 followers, and it is still growing!

I’m really proud of my content right now, and I’m hoping to start posting more consistently. So if you’d like to check out my Insta and maybe give me a follow, that would be amazing! You can find me @lookshecanblog. Thank you to those of you already following!

Something else I’ve done recently is learn a lot about friendship. I was sidelining some of my friends who really care about me to make time for people I had somehow categorized in my brain as more important, more worth my time. It’s heartbreaking to think that I felt that way, subconsciously or not. The people I was focusing on are great people and we made a lot of great memories together, but sometimes good people have sh*tty tendencies.

Friendships will go up and down, but the ones that recover are the ones that matter. I like to consider myself a forgiving person, but sometimes it’s hard. Sometimes there is something deep inside you that doesn’t want to forgive them.

Someday I hope to move past it, and hopefully maybe they can too, but for now, I’m going to focus on the people in my life who never stopped loving me and never stopped caring. And I’m going to take this time to really appreciate the friendships I have with those people.

On a more lighthearted note, I finally found a prom dress thanks to the lovely Maddy Corbin. She was looking to get rid of her dress from a couple years ago, and so she offered it to me. I’m in love with it, it makes me feel like a princess, and I’m now even more excited to dance the night away with my friends at prom. Thank you, Maddy!

**Also, should I do a post about prom? I have always wanted to do one but I’m not sure what I should do it about. Maybe a diary of my prom night? Please comment your thoughts below!

I had also mentioned in a previous post the possibility of me going to Spain next summer, and I can say now with absolute certainty, ya girl is going to Spain! I can’t even put into words how exciting this is for me. I’ve never been overseas, or on a plane in general, so that should be interesting, but I’m going with my favorite Spanish teachers, so that alone will make it a trip to remember.

There are so many exciting things to come in the future and I am beyond excited for when they do. I can’t wait to share them with you!

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