“So, what is it that you want to do?”
This is a question I’m certain I will receive about 42 times this holiday season.
This question is a loaded question is disguised by its own simplicity.
It should be easy to say what it is that I want to do, at least according to most people’s definition anyway, which is college and a career.
However, I feel what I want to do doesn’t necessarily fit that definition.
What do I really want to do?
— I’d love to fill you in.
I want to be a writer. I’m not 100% sure what I want to write so I want to try it all. Screenwriting, songwriting, journalism, maybe I’ll even try writing a book, and who knows what else.
I want to be a photographer. I want to test my abilities and improve my photography. I want to maybe even start a small photography business on the side, but only time will tell.
I want to be a content creator. I want to design and put my blood, sweat, and tears into projects that I’m proud of. Maybe I’ll achieve this by helping others find themselves and build brands they’re proud of, or maybe I’ll do this just by creating content of my own. I’m not sure yet, but I can’t wait to find out.
I want to be an influencer. What do I want to “influence?” I want to influence people to be better, to be good to people, ALL people, regardless of our differences. I want to influence people to be the very best they can be and to never quit striving for that. I want to influence people to dream bigger. I want to influence people to stand on their own two feet, to know they are loved, they matter, and that their voice is relevant.
All of these things I can technically achieve without a college degree, however, there are other things I aspire to do that might.
I want to learn more about photography. I’d love to take more photography classes to get a better understanding of how to use my camera. I loved photojournalism in high school so maybe I’ll take a class about it in college too.
I want to be bilingual. I want to be fluent in Spanish. I have taken it for the last four years in high school and I am nowhere near ready to quit learning.
I want to study abroad. I feel beyond privileged to travel to Spain this summer, but I would love to study there for a few weeks, maybe even a semester while in college. Or maybe I’ll even study in a different country entirely! Who knows what the future will hold.
This next one is a little cliche, but I feel it’s necessary to include because it is the whole-hearted truth:
Most importantly though, I want to be happy.
When it comes down to it, it doesn’t really matter what you do as long as it makes you happy, and I know for sure that I am the only one in the entire world who knows what can make me the happiest.
So to my loved ones,
If this crazy dream is a part of it (which hi there, it is), please please respect that, especially if you want me to be happy too.
To my readers,
It took me a while, almost 16 years of traveling around the sun, to find the things that I’m the most passionate about, but once I did, I knew that I had found what was going to fulfill me, give me purpose, and grant me the happiness I’ve told myself for so long I never deserved. I never stopped searching for my passions.
And I will always and forever encourage you to do the same.
You are allowed to be both a masterpiece and a work in progress simultaneously. — Sophia Bush